[TRIGGER WARNING: Mind Control]
Once upon a time, in a place called Maple Grove, Cinderella and Prince Charming met online, had one date and got married. On their honeymoon, they found the end of the rainbow (it's in Oregon; we have pictures) and expected to Live Happily Ever After.
But it was not to be because Michael, I mean, Prince Charming found a website called InfoWars. And boy! Was I, I mean, Cinderella pissed off!
Remember how I told you in my old blog how my dad had blackout rages? I've searched high and low on YouTube for anyone else raging like my dad. Frankly, the videos of "adult temper tantrums" are pathetic. They call that "raging"?! Pffffttttt
R. Kelly came close when he raged at interviewer Gayle King. But Alex Jones of InfoWars nails the style of Dad's raging when he balls up his fists and yells. Every day when Michael watched InfoWars, he invited that raging lunatic into our beautiful Happily Ever After.
Boy! Was I pissed!
But the truth is, I wasn't just pissed. Actually, I was terrified. Alex's well-researched and well-documented information on so-called "Conspiracy Theories" terrified me. Yep, Cinderella was just plain scared. She and Prince Charming had many a passionate discussion about "inviting sadness that has no impact on our current Happily Ever After into our home."
What I didn't realize is that I was committing the mistake Fraulein Maria avoided in The Sound of Music when Uncle Max asked her to make The Captain compromise his principles.
She replied, "I can't ask him to be less than he is, Max."
I was asking Michael to be less than he is.
When he raised his hand and took the oath to "support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic," twice in the Army and once in the Navy, that it wasn't merely for the length of his enlistment. It was for his whole life. That oath even supersedes his marriage vows. By asking him to switch off InfoWars, to ignore so-called "Conspiracy Theories," I was asking him to be less of a soldier, less of a patriot, less of a man. That he would not do. That he could not do.
So we came to a kind-of armed truce. I left the room when he watched InfoWars and he tried to keep Real Life and InfoWars separate. Balance was restored to The Force. We still had our Happily Ever After.
Then it happened. Thanks to Michael, in October 2013, I "discovered" narcissism.
Down the Bunny Trail
Do you remember how you felt when you discovered narcissism? It's like inventing the wheel or discovering fire. It's a wonderful explosion in your brain. It lights you up from the inside like you swallowed a lightbulb.
After that never-to-be-forgotten day, I spent every spare moment researching narcissism. I was often awake until 5 a.m. crying, journaling and researching. There was no rabbit trail I didn't follow. Then, one day, my research led me to the topic of Mind Control.
Boy! Was that ever a fascinating topic! The theory is that through repeated trauma, you can train a victim's mind to be triggered by keywords, causing them to behave in certain ways when triggered by their Mind Control handler.
The parallels to narcissistic abuse were fascinating. One reason I champion No Contact is because I know how easily you and I can be triggered by our narcissists' keywords. The words "disappointed" and "Christian" are two of mine. I wrote about it on PsychCentral way back in 2016 (see PDF below.)
Then I hopped down the bunny trail even further. It led to Operation Paperclip which is how our government brought Nazi scientists into America under false identities. There was a certain Dr. Green who continued his Mind Control experimentation in the CIA's MKUltra program. That bunny trail led straight to the Illuminati and the Freemasons who are often Mind Control handlers and often find their victims in "nice" churches like the Independent Fundamentalist Baptist (IFB) church/school I grew up in that tolerated rape by the pastors.
Just as I was hopping down that Bunny Trail from the South, I bumped into Michael hopping down the Bunny Trail from the North. We kissed and made up because now, I too was Red Pilled.
Wanna know who else is Red Pilled? Donald Trump. That's why They hate and fear him so much.
The other day, a Democrat commented on Facebook that Republicans invent Conspiracy Theories just to scare themselves and each other. Sort-of like kids inventing ghost stories to tell round the campfire.
And suddenly I realized that this person is just like me back in the day. They just want to live Happily Ever After. By the logical fallacy of Name Calling, they dismiss the Conspiracy Theories not because they aren't true, but because they are terrified of them.
I get that. I've been there!
The truth is, most so-called Conspiracy Theories are very, very well documented not by whack jobs living on a compound somewhere. Oh no! They're well documented by the people who invented or patented or theorized or created whatever it is. Back in the day, they wrote books and manifestos declaring their plans. George Orwell's 1984 is probably the most famous example but there are plenty of others. Now, they use Hollywood to declare their intentions...which explains why the movies nowadays are so dark, so boring. Movies about pandemics, for example, exist in abundance not because they're good entertainment. They're not even intended to be.
Michael has a theory that Evil must always tell us what it's going to do before it does it. That it must ask for permission. It's an interesting concept. I think he's right. The books, the manifestos, the patents, the movies...evil is shouting its intentions from the rooftops. There's an embarrassment of riches of proof. Dismissing it as "Conspiracy Theories" changes nothing.
Happily Ever After
There's nothing fun about being Red Pilled. But there's a trick to it: you must find balance.
It's all well and good to know what They are trying to do. The trick is to be happy anyways despite knowing the horrors that might be coming down the pike. C'Mon! The Book of Revelations laid it all out two millennia ago. It's not like it's a surprise!
Stop for a moment. Look around you. Is your life good, right here, right now? It is, isn't it? Enjoy it! Bask in your freedoms. Use them. Dark days may come someday but right here, right now, life is still good.
That's the Balance I've found. It allowed me to be Red Pilled and be Happy at the same time or to phrase it another way...
And they lived happily ever after.
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9/13/2020 06:25:09 pm
Thank you for publishing this Lenora - it is written in a beautiful manner ....
9/13/2020 06:55:30 pm
Thanks so much for your comment, Kenneth. I do hope you'll subscribe (if you haven't already). There's a lot more where this article came from! :)
9/14/2020 12:19:49 am
I am so proud of you, after so many years we have found an (almost) perfect balance. Almost, meaning dealing with GWI, PAP and health concerns which I know troubles you, but it will be ok no matter what.
9/14/2020 02:01:29 pm
Awwwwwww, you're the Best Husband in the World...and I mean that. I fell on my feet when I met you. You are a such a blessing to me. Without you, I *never* would've started writing so all the people that have been blessed by "my" writing are actually blessed by you, Honey. Health problems....pppfffttt. That was bound to happen sooner or later. Just "grow old with me, the best is yet to be." So glad you liked the article! Love you to little bit and pieces too! :D <3
Wow, I love this! I've spent the morning reading your work and I just love your style and optimism! You've gone down the rabbit hole and back up the other side into the sunlight! I so needed to hear this today as I think I got stuck down there, alone and in the dark! I am writing from the other side of the pond in England, where we are in the middle of a month long 'lock down'!
6/15/2021 06:51:44 am
I am very very happy to have found you through the rabbit trail. I look forward to reading all of your blogs and following your work in the future, and when possible, supporting you financially so that you can continue your amazing work. I am always in the market for talented writers as I have discovered over the last decades how so many have become nothing but hacks and do not have a genuine bit of talent attached to their DNA. I find that you do not have that issue and look forward to your long (I HOPE!) illustrious career in this venture.
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